Quietly It Passes, Quietly You PassBefore the Internet there was the world. I sat there, too, refused to participate in mindless chat, kept my head up and my eyes lowered. Always on the road and avoiding contact. But watching, the spinning of the wheels, the circling of the orbs, outer space and inner vacuum. I sat here, I guess, till I grew strange, like Sexton's little girl ritually buried with her dead father. Just watched, and unlike most folk, who watch and talk together, I just kept things cubbyholed. Some might call it a hobby, although people say I'm funny, I have no hobbies. But I've got this collection and it's a dilemma. I was frightened when my ex-wife, the painter, faced me with the reality that when an artist sells a painting, it's gone, your work belongs to someone else. So do I sit on this egg, not knowing if I have the biology to hatch it? Or pass it off to someone who'll break it, fry it, smack the shell on a Lexus at Halloween? Mostly I'll just sit. Listening in meetings, in bars, to the breeze flowing past solitude through my window, with that vacant glaze over my eyes suggesting that I know nothing, am spacing out, when I'm watching, feeding, the vampire you've invited in, and my foot in the door is yours in the grave. Death in the HeadlinesMore people today. More often the religion slips and propelling us to grasp it the spine lurches out of place with no God as backbone we mistake ourselves for our sudden loss. Some men kill because of this The loss justifies that they can and they will while in sad Tibet the most fragile bowl falls and no-one breaks meditation to catch it whatever breaks, wait; perfect curvature, shattered pieces will come around again No TitleListening to music I am the rock star sealed and delivered by the headphones reading I am the intellectual and between the lines I am the poet constantly interpreting and I am the sleeper as if death isn't enough and the avoider running from all this but when I look in the constantly changing mirror I know I am vegetable and death and skin boiled and distilled beyond skull I am the face I had before I was born I grace it with a title for here for I do not know better EnlightenmentI click on the light in the bathroom, then snap it off when I see that it adds nothing to the soft sunlight streaming in. I pray to be this wise in speech. To banish artificiality and speak only when it improves on silence.
Harry Calhoun |